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worst coversation i ever had with anyone BUT best thing that ever happened to me.
Posted on 2008.09.03 at 17:54
1. Learn how to fucking spell and use grammar, it's like reading a fucking two year old's whiny excuse for a "comeback" that wasn't even necesary.
2. You do realize that my last "response" was me telling you to fuck off right? The fact that you didn't realize until now that I didn't want anything to do with you proves to me even more that you're more of a dip shit than I thought you were. Way to go, you amazed ME.
3. You helped me through shit? All you could do when I was talking to you about shit was tell me how much worse my situation could be, and you couldn't even give me any fucking feedback because YOU DON'T FUCKING LIVE.
4. Morgan is a better friend to me than you ever have been, and she actually had the balls to pick up her shit and leave. We have had so much more fun in the past two fucking months than I EVER had with you. I love having a friend that is on the same mental wavelength as me, not a whiny crying bitch.
5. My goals? Yeah, I do want to get fucked up in every state, I think that's a perfectly fine goal. I ALSO want to see the fucking world and change shit. Obviously you had your head too far up your fucking ass when I was discussing these things with you. I don't know if you actually remember why I left to travel in the first place, but it had nothing to do with substances of any kind.
6. Yeah, I told people in Olympia about you thinking I was a junkie. Why? Because everyone thinks you're a fucking loser anyway, and I figured I'd stir things up a bit since I wasn't going to be there for a while. Bitch move? Hell yeah. You calling me a bitch just makes me want to make things harder for you. Idiot.
7. Everything has been great for me since I stopped talking to you: I get to travel with chill ass people, my dog rocks, my brother is doing way better than he ever has, by the way, and I get to do whatever the fuck I want. I don't push people away on accident, you just didn't get the fucking shove when I was in town last.
Get a fucking life.
Love,
Laura
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss dizz ♣
Date: Aug 21, 2008 5:21 PM
oh god, i know what this is, this is you trying to beat me with words like you do everyone else...
my eyes? open your eyes! you couldnt even fucking face me when you were here. what the hell happened to you? your too fucking hard to be my friend, well fine i dont want someone whos turned into a raging elitist bitch to be considered my best friend anymore. ive been there for you throught a whole fucking lot, we had too much fun, but sometimes i get so frustrated because youve never respected me through out any of this. ive always known but im not doing it anymore laura.
your brother doesnt give two shits about you, hes too fucked up himself to even care, same with your mother, i was all you fucking got.... I do not enjoy worrying about you, which is why im done. fuck it. and fuck your goals. i dont know how many times youve said all you want to do is get fucked up in any city you can, well you know what, thats not a fucking goal, thats you becoming a peice of shit person and a peice of shit friend. you used to have goals, you gave them up to be a fucking loser. all you care about is yourself and its always been that way, ive let you pull this shit with me cause yah i didnt give a fuck, but i do now, NO more dude. you cant control every fucking situation and everyone in your life anymore. IM OUT. this is great laura, i hope you regret your tattoo, i know im gonna look at mine and think about how you just push everyone away, even me. how can you possibly be so fucking pissed that that im the only one around you that even likes you anymore? im done sticking up for you. fight your own battles if your gonna be this way, you stubborn pathetic excuse for a fucking friend!
and next time you want to call me a drama lover, suck my dick, cause i only talked to you about it, and now apprently everyone else knows cause you decided to talk shit. whos the drama starter now?
remember laura, you destroy everything you have that is good. way to go!!!!
destrtoy the one solid,uptouchable friendship you have.
ppffff
your just a bunch of lame excuses to be less than you are.
pull your dirty head out of your ass, cause you owe me an appology.
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From: Hoard
Date: Aug 15, 2008 9:00 PM
You scope out drama like it's fucking cock. I'm so tired of having to hear about how fucking worried you are about me... my own brother is less freaked out than you and he's known me my whole life. At first it was okay, but now it's like you're looking for things that are going wrong with me just so you have an excuse to be fucking worried.
I'm sorry that you can't accept that I'm doing my own thing and like to actually accomplish my goals.
You know for a fact (as well as everyone else who has ever met me) that I fucking hate heroin and won't even hang out with people who do it.
Think long and hard about the last time I was in town and you'll see why I didn't let you know I was in town. I hate walking on eggshells around you and making sure I'm saying the right fucking thing so I don't upset you. You have shed your crocodile tears so many times they don't even affect me.
Open your fucking eyes, Cassidy, and look at the world around you.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss dizz ♣
Date: Aug 11, 2008 3:56 PM
doug talked to me.
i never said anything to him.
he said something to me which is why i thought it so strange. i never did think that laura, but your not around, i dont know when your gonna change your mind. i dont know what your gonna say about anything. its not up to me to assume you will or will not do anything. AND
this is not bullshit. this is me, cassidy, expressing how i feel. and if you see that as drama, im sorry, your obviously looking at it much different than me.
thanks for letting me know your in town.
that hurts dude.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Hoard
Date: Aug 7, 2008 6:10 PM
first of all, why the fuck where you talking to doug? and second of all, fuck you for thinking i'd do that shit. I'm not even reading all of this shit, I'm over this fucking drama bullshit.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss dizz ♣
Date: Aug 4, 2008 7:48 PM
doug talked to me.
out of the blue, he has never before.
so i know he means business.
he told me someone asked you for "tar"
i believe those were his words.
and as much as i wish u'd say " hell no dude i dont do that shit," i dont know anymore, all i worry about is whether I'll ever see you again, sometimes i rather not worry, but i do.
laura, i love you, but i cannot be your friend if your going to do this. before this, i couldnt even call you, because i was already so upset, im afraid for you dude, this has gone farther than just traveling and having fun. this is where you reach the fork in the road, laura, you live or you dont. please, i hope you realize soon what path your taking just realize your letting every terrible thing to happen or every shitty person win right now. you give up, your done. i think ive been there for you enough. i hope to death, this is all some misunderstanding. you know, i dont know what to do without you and i think i would really not know what to do if you were dead. i know you dont care as much anymore, and i know im not as important to you anymore to keep you going but for all im worth, this is all ive ever wanted, for you, my bestest friend in the world, to be OK. to be happy and healthy and not destructive. But here i am, with nothing left to do or say to you. being there for you i guess isnt enough, and if i cant help, i dont know what can. if there is one thing i want from you is to take care of yourself. if i cannot be there with you, i at least want to know your OK and this is NOT okay. something has to be wrong, this isnt you, this isnt right. if you ever come back, i want to talk to you. we never talk, we never really do and i think its time. i think its time we have a very long talk, you and i.
2. You do realize that my last "response" was me telling you to fuck off right? The fact that you didn't realize until now that I didn't want anything to do with you proves to me even more that you're more of a dip shit than I thought you were. Way to go, you amazed ME.
3. You helped me through shit? All you could do when I was talking to you about shit was tell me how much worse my situation could be, and you couldn't even give me any fucking feedback because YOU DON'T FUCKING LIVE.
4. Morgan is a better friend to me than you ever have been, and she actually had the balls to pick up her shit and leave. We have had so much more fun in the past two fucking months than I EVER had with you. I love having a friend that is on the same mental wavelength as me, not a whiny crying bitch.
5. My goals? Yeah, I do want to get fucked up in every state, I think that's a perfectly fine goal. I ALSO want to see the fucking world and change shit. Obviously you had your head too far up your fucking ass when I was discussing these things with you. I don't know if you actually remember why I left to travel in the first place, but it had nothing to do with substances of any kind.
6. Yeah, I told people in Olympia about you thinking I was a junkie. Why? Because everyone thinks you're a fucking loser anyway, and I figured I'd stir things up a bit since I wasn't going to be there for a while. Bitch move? Hell yeah. You calling me a bitch just makes me want to make things harder for you. Idiot.
7. Everything has been great for me since I stopped talking to you: I get to travel with chill ass people, my dog rocks, my brother is doing way better than he ever has, by the way, and I get to do whatever the fuck I want. I don't push people away on accident, you just didn't get the fucking shove when I was in town last.
Get a fucking life.
Love,
Laura
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss dizz ♣
Date: Aug 21, 2008 5:21 PM
oh god, i know what this is, this is you trying to beat me with words like you do everyone else...
my eyes? open your eyes! you couldnt even fucking face me when you were here. what the hell happened to you? your too fucking hard to be my friend, well fine i dont want someone whos turned into a raging elitist bitch to be considered my best friend anymore. ive been there for you throught a whole fucking lot, we had too much fun, but sometimes i get so frustrated because youve never respected me through out any of this. ive always known but im not doing it anymore laura.
your brother doesnt give two shits about you, hes too fucked up himself to even care, same with your mother, i was all you fucking got.... I do not enjoy worrying about you, which is why im done. fuck it. and fuck your goals. i dont know how many times youve said all you want to do is get fucked up in any city you can, well you know what, thats not a fucking goal, thats you becoming a peice of shit person and a peice of shit friend. you used to have goals, you gave them up to be a fucking loser. all you care about is yourself and its always been that way, ive let you pull this shit with me cause yah i didnt give a fuck, but i do now, NO more dude. you cant control every fucking situation and everyone in your life anymore. IM OUT. this is great laura, i hope you regret your tattoo, i know im gonna look at mine and think about how you just push everyone away, even me. how can you possibly be so fucking pissed that that im the only one around you that even likes you anymore? im done sticking up for you. fight your own battles if your gonna be this way, you stubborn pathetic excuse for a fucking friend!
and next time you want to call me a drama lover, suck my dick, cause i only talked to you about it, and now apprently everyone else knows cause you decided to talk shit. whos the drama starter now?
remember laura, you destroy everything you have that is good. way to go!!!!
destrtoy the one solid,uptouchable friendship you have.
ppffff
your just a bunch of lame excuses to be less than you are.
pull your dirty head out of your ass, cause you owe me an appology.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Hoard
Date: Aug 15, 2008 9:00 PM
You scope out drama like it's fucking cock. I'm so tired of having to hear about how fucking worried you are about me... my own brother is less freaked out than you and he's known me my whole life. At first it was okay, but now it's like you're looking for things that are going wrong with me just so you have an excuse to be fucking worried.
I'm sorry that you can't accept that I'm doing my own thing and like to actually accomplish my goals.
You know for a fact (as well as everyone else who has ever met me) that I fucking hate heroin and won't even hang out with people who do it.
Think long and hard about the last time I was in town and you'll see why I didn't let you know I was in town. I hate walking on eggshells around you and making sure I'm saying the right fucking thing so I don't upset you. You have shed your crocodile tears so many times they don't even affect me.
Open your fucking eyes, Cassidy, and look at the world around you.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss dizz ♣
Date: Aug 11, 2008 3:56 PM
doug talked to me.
i never said anything to him.
he said something to me which is why i thought it so strange. i never did think that laura, but your not around, i dont know when your gonna change your mind. i dont know what your gonna say about anything. its not up to me to assume you will or will not do anything. AND
this is not bullshit. this is me, cassidy, expressing how i feel. and if you see that as drama, im sorry, your obviously looking at it much different than me.
thanks for letting me know your in town.
that hurts dude.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Hoard
Date: Aug 7, 2008 6:10 PM
first of all, why the fuck where you talking to doug? and second of all, fuck you for thinking i'd do that shit. I'm not even reading all of this shit, I'm over this fucking drama bullshit.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Miss dizz ♣
Date: Aug 4, 2008 7:48 PM
doug talked to me.
out of the blue, he has never before.
so i know he means business.
he told me someone asked you for "tar"
i believe those were his words.
and as much as i wish u'd say " hell no dude i dont do that shit," i dont know anymore, all i worry about is whether I'll ever see you again, sometimes i rather not worry, but i do.
laura, i love you, but i cannot be your friend if your going to do this. before this, i couldnt even call you, because i was already so upset, im afraid for you dude, this has gone farther than just traveling and having fun. this is where you reach the fork in the road, laura, you live or you dont. please, i hope you realize soon what path your taking just realize your letting every terrible thing to happen or every shitty person win right now. you give up, your done. i think ive been there for you enough. i hope to death, this is all some misunderstanding. you know, i dont know what to do without you and i think i would really not know what to do if you were dead. i know you dont care as much anymore, and i know im not as important to you anymore to keep you going but for all im worth, this is all ive ever wanted, for you, my bestest friend in the world, to be OK. to be happy and healthy and not destructive. But here i am, with nothing left to do or say to you. being there for you i guess isnt enough, and if i cant help, i dont know what can. if there is one thing i want from you is to take care of yourself. if i cannot be there with you, i at least want to know your OK and this is NOT okay. something has to be wrong, this isnt you, this isnt right. if you ever come back, i want to talk to you. we never talk, we never really do and i think its time. i think its time we have a very long talk, you and i.
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